Credit for Student Government!

Swasti Jain on behalf of Student Government

TL;DR: Students can now get credit for their efforts on Student Government. Nominations for elections are happening until the end of the day TODAY! Nominate yourself or others for CORe/Student Gov. positions by Monday, April 6th at 11:59 pm!

In this first round of elections, we are looking for the following positions:

  • President
  • VP for Finance
  • VP for Communications
  • Director of SAC
  • Club Chair
  • Director of SERV

Over a year ago, I wrote “Jaded Junior: Apathy at Olin” for Frankly Speaking highlighting how easy it was to fall into the patterns of burnout and resignation.

To recap, in my article I write about how I was confronted on my jaded feelings about Olin’s future:

“Swasti, what’s your perspective on Olin’s future?”

And without thinking about my answer I said, “I dunno man, I just want to get my degree and get out of here.”

“That’s so interesting… I didn’t expect you of all people to be so jaded.”

I couldn’t shake the feeling that she was unequivocally right to judge me. I’m not a laid-back, nonchalant person. I am so chalant! I be chalanting!! I get involved in situations that don’t particularly ask for my input. I meddle. I care. And it’s my, perhaps naive, belief that most Oliners chose to be here for that same reason: to be with other engineers who care about making an impact.

In that article I also criticize how Olin’s current structure does not incentivize students to take on additional responsibility when it comes to creating culture and improving student life. Today’s Oliners are chronically stretched thin, wearing several campus identities.

This is why offering ISR credit for Student Government is so impactful. In my own time involved in CORe as Senior Class Representative, I have seen firsthand how much an engaged student body makes a difference in student life.

One of the most powerful things we have at Olin is that one voice can bring about a lot of change, and Student Government can propagate that change by funding any student’s idea.

And I am really proud to say that Student Government has done a whole lot of that:

  • Sushi Night funded by CORe
  • New Weights for EH Gym funded by CORe
  • New Drumkit for Jam room funded by CORe
  • New Skateboards in ball room funded by CORe
  • Ski/snowboard tuning equipment funded by CORe
  • Transportation for Volunteering funded by CORe and now SERV
  • Mardi Gras Party funded by SAC
  • Worked with President May to develop formal guidelines for student groups to host events at her house 

As a senior who refuses to stay jaded, I want to remind you of all of the ways you can advocate for healthy boundaries with culture, creation, and studies. If you have questions about getting credit or anything else, our current President and VPs hold office hours from 11-12 pm Wednesdays in the Dining Hall. Or you could come visit during our meetings on Mondays 5:30-6:30 pm in the Crescent Room!

The Dying Art of Mental Masturbation

I am currently mentally masturbating. As I begin to write this piece, it is 10:31AM and I am at Wellesley—I’m planning to go to office hours for my chemistry class, and I got here a half-hour early to have a meeting which ended about ten minutes ago. This week is going to be crazy busy with Passover, a CD design review, biology catch-up, and other silliness—I should be using this time to work! But instead, I am doing none of those things because I saw Maddy’s email about Frankly Speaking submissions being due and decided to write this piece—it’s an indulgence, and a fun one, too.

 I initially heard this concept from my father. In his first year of residency, the attending surgeons kept telling him to “stop mentally masturbating and just start cutting people up.” The concept can be summarized as the practice of doing indulgent, meandering intellectual tasks when more direct action could be taken. 

At Olin, this seemingly meaningless exploration and indulgence often is the real work; mental masturbation is an essential part of the Olin experience. Being a student at Olin means getting sidetracked. It often involves horrendously overscoping your QEA project because you think it would be cool, or staying up until the sun rises to get your Mech Proto automata working. 

Olin’s pedagogy heavily promotes a unique combination of whimsy, grit, and intellectual indulgence, and provides a beautiful example of how this exploration can be used to develop highly effective engineers. At its core, Olin is a college of mental masturbators, and I am proud to be one of them.

However, this culture of intellectual exploration is breaking down into preprofessionalism, and it’s not a pretty sight. Take the rise of 20-crediting. The social pressure to take 20 credits a semester is a new concept—according to professors, even a few years back, an Oliner taking more than 4 classes was a rare exception. Now, it is commonplace.

This is absurd, and entirely against the values of Olin. Instead of spending their time diving deep into concepts, overscoping and gaining the application-based intellectual flexibility which helps Oliners distinguish themselves, many students taking 20 credits end up shoving in content through a firehose without having enough space to truly understand or dive deep, much less actually breathe. 

I learned this lesson from experience—last semester, I was taking 22 credits including PIE, QEA 3, Mech Solids, Organic Chemistry 1, Wellesley poetry, and an ISR. The sheer volume of work prevented me from diving deep into any one particular concept, diluting the value of the courses I was taking. Without unstructured time to recover, breathe, and develop deeper intellectual curiosity in my coursework, I simply did the minimum to achieve a good grade for each class. I cheated myself of the curiosity, learning, and intellectual indulgence which a proper Olin semester should entail. 

Overcommitting yourself gives you the academic equivalent of erectile dysfunction—you become so constantly stressed that you just can’t get it up; you lose all interest in the kind of unstructured learning and growth which is so central to Olin’s curriculum.

As I finish (re)writing this article, it is currently 9:08PM. The official fall course schedule came out a few days ago, and people are beginning to pick out their classes for their fall semesters. 

Inevitably, many rising sophomores will try and take 20 credits, or set themselves up for Mech-E Hell Semester, or plan to do some other ridiculous set of commitments which will make it substantially more difficult to have a good overall learning experience. They’ll get through it—Oliners are aggressively competent, and we know how to check the boxes to achieve outward-facing success. 

So I urge you to consider, if you will, make the time to actually learn—to indulge yourself in self-exploration, curiosity, and joy.

*If you want help planning out your course schedule, please feel free to reach out. It is not an exaggeration to say that I have spent more time planning out my courses than literally any other student at Olin, and I find great joy in helping other people figure out their own path for classes.

Spankley Freaking: This Month’s Rejected Headlines

Rising Sophomore Lured Into A Suite Double Like Odysseus To The Sirens

“Triplessssssss,” hissed the junior, beckoning them towards East Hall

Carpediem Used For Yet Another Survey

I’m going to seize the day by punching the next P&M student I see in the face

“OK. Now for SURE It’s Spring,” Says First Year In A T-Shirt Right Before Getting Hit In The Face With Another Inch And A Half Of Snow

“Olonion’s Half-Assed Name A Shameless, Blatant Attempt To Ride Off The Coattails Of A Respectable, Established Organization”

Writes Spankly Freaking Editor

“Ahhh, What A Nice Break” Says Student Who Did Not Relax At All Over Break

They are now buried in work. Student is me.

Tour Guide Happens To Have 15th Birthday This Month On The Day Of Their Tour

Root Source of Mistrust Within Olin Community Finally Identified

It was those damn IT phishing emails all along

Lost, Confused Student Doesn’t Know What To Go-To Complain About With Dining Hall Being Undeniably Cracked

“What will I have to talk about??” cries Junior as they dip their freshly grilled flank steak into a fine chimichurri sauce

Revisiting ‘It Happens Here’

By Peer Advocates for Sexual Respect

(T.W. mentions of Sexual Assault, Rape)

“You don’t think it happens, right? You think Olin is a safe place. Sexual assault doesn’t happen here, because we’re all friends, all one big community. You know that one of us would never rape another one of us.” -Anonymous, “It Happens Here”, 2012 [1]

In 2014, the Peer Advocates (PAs) program was created as part of the AHS Capstone course after a student conducted a survey that confirmed what two Frankly Speaking contributors [1,2] had already said: that sexual assault does happen at Olin, and it affects the same percentage of our students as it does any college students in the country. 

The PAs will be hosting our annual reflection and discussion of the ‘It Happens Here’ articles [3] in the Quiet Reading Room on Tuesday, April 7th, from 5:30-6:30 (huge shout out to the wonderful Librarians for letting us use this zen space for this event!). Jeanne Haley will be available in a nearby room for anyone who needs to step out to speak with a counselor. 

As volunteer student support, Peer Advocates engage in routine discussion and training with campus and non-campus resources to help survivors navigate Title IX reporting and complaint processes. If you have any questions or concerns about Title IX, its benefits and drawbacks, deciding on whether you want to interact with it or not, or if you want support in doing so, please reach out to any of the PAs, and we would be happy to help! No issue is too small; we are here to help everyone.

The Spring 25 PA’s are:

  • Anagha Babu (’26)
  • Anika Kale (’29)
  • Anna Holbrook (’26)
  • Brandon Spiller (’28)
  • Swasti Jain (’26)
  • Tamas Regan (’28)
  • Wren Yockey (’29)

The Peer Advocates (PAs) are an independent volunteer group focused on providing student-to-student support regarding sexual respect.

UWill’s Mental Health Crisis Line for Olin students: 833.646.1526

Support available 24/7/365 from a licensed counselor

Confidential or anonymous

[1] Original 2012 “It Happens Here” Article by Anonymous

[2] 2014 “It (Still) Happens Here” Article by Anonymous

https://olinihh.weebly.com

[3]  Olin College ‘It Happens Here’ website, includes collection of anonymously written articles

[4] 2014 “Sexual Assault at Olin”, includes published results of survey

https://franklyspeakingnews.com/2022/03/other-things-happen-too/

[5] 2022 “Other Things Happen, Too” by Anonymous

Leadership And Walking The Walk

Dear Oliners,

While I have done my best to communicate frequently and broadly across campus, during my conversations with staff, students, and faculty, I realized it wasn’t enough. Given the constraints of how many people I can converse with (in person) on any given day (week/month), I thought I might share more about what’s on my mind through a Frankly Speaking article. This is an experiment and, as always, I look forward to your thoughts and reactions.

Jumping right in: during my first week on campus, several members of our community had heard about our family dog. The first question from many of you early on: are you going to change the “no dogs on campus policy”? You might remember I mentioned this at my first Town Hall: I declined to change or tackle the dog policy. 

Of course, at the time, my dog was still living in New York City and it was easy to leave things in place. She has, in the meantime, relocated to Needham. We created a village to care for her back in New York, trusted walkers, a behavioral trainer, and my assistant to name just a few.Other than identifying a trainer, here at Olin, for the moment, I am her entire support system. My care plan (ill-formed in hindsight, as I will explain in a moment) entailed leaving her at the house and walking her every couple of hours until I could find dogwalkers. Not a perfect plan and it would have worked except I neglected to account for all the people entering the house—for repairs, bringing food for student dinners, and cleaning after events. 

At this point, you might be wondering exactly where I’m going with this story. Our policy essentially forbids dogs in campus buildings. And yet, many of you have seen my dog with me on campus. Some of you have even had meetings with me while she lays next to my desk. Notwithstanding the policy, I couldn’t leave her home with strangers coming in and out. As President, I was breaking Olin’s policy.

It’s a little thing. But I wrestle every day with what my behavior signals to campus. Everyone has been kind and understanding. But one of the things we, as a society, have seen is the increasing willingness of leaders to bend rules for their own benefit. The power of self-interest has permeated our systems. While I certainly don’t have delusions of grandeur and don’t equate bringing my dog to campus with what we read about in the news, I take seriously the idea of modeling the values we purport to represent.

Life is filled with choices. In this situation, I balanced caring for a beloved member of our family with ensuring the safety of others and in so doing, chose to violate an Olin policy. Our choices have consequences. 

I share this story with you for a few reasons. First, I continue to harbor a nagging sense of setting a bad example. Second, I am contemplating whether to send our dog back to New York City until I can figure out a better solution and that makes me a little sad. Most importantly, though, I wanted to start a conversation about how we, as individuals, make decisions, and decide “to do the right thing”.

That’s all I have for now. I look forward to hearing your thoughts. Feel free to send thoughts and reflections to president@olin.edu.

P.S. If you think it’s time to reconsider the dog policy, let me know.

Whimsy at Olin

It is comfortable to stick to a routine. Wake up, go to the dining hall, run to class, get lunch, do homework, get dinner, run to meetings, then get to bed.

It’s on the iCal. All the classes. All the meetings. All the clubs and projects you overcommitted to. It’s constant and comfortable. 

But most of us are missing the pieces of discomfort that lead to lasting memories. Sure, you can brush it off, saying that it’s too cold out or Boston is just too far away. But leaning into those challenges makes for a lasting memory. 

You don’t even need to change your schedule to embark on a whimsical adventure. Just shift aspects of your routine. 

Try taking your breakfast or a cup of coffee for a walk. Wander to a new location with your meal. From the bench by the back of the library to Parcel B. For lunch, just grab a jacket and sit right outside the dining hall.

Have spare time during lunch? Walk a loop around Babson campus and discover a new building (have you found their arcade yet?). Walk anywhere. Walk to Wellesley College at night, walk to get a bagel in Needham. You could even walk to Boston!  

It’s already March (crazy!) Time seems to be flying by this semester, but by doing something new every day, the days slow down as you collect so many more memories. 

I challenge you to find one new thing (see Google Doc for ideas) and try it this week (even ask those at your table to join). Add whimsy to your iCal if you really need. Let me know how it goes!

Use the Google Doc linked on the QR code to check out and add whimsical ideas:

Spankly March ’26

Brave people of Olin, we know you have gone with a drought of truth… That, in such a famine as this, you have been unduly forced to bear the wicked cup of lies to your lips and drink the plebeian humours of “Frankly Speaking,” believing the fictitious and malevolent have won.

“Nay!” we say! Though our voices here at Spankly Freaking have yet once more been silenced these past months (we’ve been too lazy to get something together), we brave through this desert to once again provide the oasis of cool water that will soothe your throat, and quench your thirst for truth and justice. 

Without further ado, here are this month’s rejected headlines…

Half-Finished Great Lawn Igloo Serves As Comforting Reminder To Students That They, Too, Will Never Fully Achieve Their Life Goals

“February is depressing enough, but walking back to the dorms each day and getting to see a clear monument to the plight of those who dream too big really just pounds it in,” said senior shortly before looking out of a dark window, sighing

Miller Academic Center Proposes New Strategic Vision: “Olin As A Slowly Decaying Lab”

Exposé Brilliantly, Fearlessly Exposes Urgent Olin Need: Writing Tutors

“Initially, I was hesitant, but when I saw the unattributed quote immediately backed up with a foggy to unclear call to action, I was knocked off my seat. I thought ‘Wow, now this is well-focused, succinct piece of evidence on why Oliners should have someone who isn’t an engineer proofread’”

Par- I Mean Social Gatherings Are Back!

Students prepare to raucously cram 7 people (Fire Safe Occupancy Limit™) into a room for a whole night of unbridled raving that goes until the 12am quiet hours

Olin Drops To #3 In Best Engineering College For Undergraduates 

Pivoting from impact centered education, Olin focuses on military grade, long-range airstrike engineering to finally beat Rose-Hulman “The Hard Way”

Rare Sighting Of A Junior On Campus Made Feb 12th, 4:34PM

“I thought they had all abandoned us!” cried a First-Year before snapping a blurry photo of the lone Junior not on study abroad wistfully roaming through EH 1NN

All Of These Ten Couches Sitting Unused In The EH 3 And 4 Lounge Are Really Just Asking For Someone To Take Them

I mean, who even leaves eight couches just around when no one is using them? It’s not like the lounge will ever need all the five couches that are left in the space. 

R. May Lee Sits All Olin Family Around The Dinner Table To Assure Them That She Is “Not Mad, Just Disappointed”

Report Finds That That One Person On Your CD Team “Coordinating With The People Group” Is, In Fact, Just Playing Clash Royale 

Even worse, they’re playing a Mega Knight deck

My Thoughts on Cheese

I almost never eat cheese. As a young child, I developed a strong dislike for cheese in all its forms. This seemingly random preference spurred a lifelong effort to avoid cheese and impress onto others the value of reducing cheese consumption. Today, I have a somewhat complex philosophy around cheese. I absolutely refuse to eat so-called “stinky cheeses” under any circumstances; I believe that nobody should eat them when around other people without checking first that the odor will not prove offensive to their table mates. Beyond stinky cheese, I try to avoid other kinds of cheese whenever I can, a stance supported by the gastric distress that can come with eating cheese and other dairy products. This avoidance has two exceptions: I will eat cheese in cases where it would be impolite to refuse, and I will eat cheese in foods where the cheese’s taste and texture is totally dominated by the rest of the food. In this essay, I will explain my philosophy and attempt to persuade readers, both cheese-eaters and cheese-haters, to adopt a similar one.

Cheese stinks. Literally. Stinky cheeses are popular among cheese connoisseurs around the world. My younger sister counts among their ranks; she has a twisted love for Parmesan especially and will pile it on any food she can. An article from Healthline characterizes Parmesan cheese as “an Italian cheese with a characteristically strong and nutty flavor that may be sweet, salty, and bitter at the same time” (Lang). This description leaves out one key characteristic of the cheese—it stinks, especially when it has been heated. Indeed, my sister’s eating it can trigger my gag reflex if I happen to be too close while the fumes waft away from the freshly warmed cheese. This is a result of a well-known quality of Parmesan cheese—it contains butyric acid, which one article describes as “a chemical that contributes to the smell of both Parmesan cheese and vomit” (Jagatia), and which is commonly known to contribute to Parmesan’s distinctive odor. People who deliberately eat Parmesan cheese around other humans without their consent are assaulting their olfactory sensibilities and being generally rude.

I share my disgust around smelly cheese with many like-minded people around the globe. One 2016 study conducted in France found that inhaling the odor of various cheeses was more likely to produce disgust than the odor of other foods. The study discovered that “among the individuals showing disgust for a given food, those disliking cheese represented a higher proportion… than those disliking the other food categories” (Royet et al.). Even in France, a famously cheese-loving country, the odor of cheese is more likely to produce a feeling of disgust than other foods. This aligns with my own experience; while I dislike other foods, nothing provokes the same visceral reaction as cheese. This finding reinforces the fact that cheese’s odor can make it unpleasant and impolite to consume around innocent tablemates of the cheese eater.

An article from the Independent cites William Hanson, an etiquette expert who published a book on the topic, in its description of appropriate workplace snacks. The article combines Hanson’s expertise in etiquette with outside polling to create its own list of office snack etiquette rules. The first rule on this list is to “avoid anything noisy or smelly due to the open-plan nature of most offices today” (Richmond). This etiquette rule can be applied beyond the restrained context of office snacking. It is clearly impolite to force anyone else to endure unpleasant odors without their consent. Stinky cheeses have a strong unpleasant odor. Therefore, people should never eat them without the explicit consent of all those in the area who could be subjected to their odor without an avenue for escape.

At this point, I have established that stinky cheese can be an unpleasant, even rude choice of food when eating with others. Even if you disagree with me on my policy of avoiding cheese, or on any other part of my argument, I hope that we can find agreement on this first point: everyone can agree that it is impolite to subject people to unpleasant odors without their consent, so therefore smelly cheeses should not be eaten around people who have not demonstrated their comfort with such odors. If these other people have indicated that they are comfortable with the odor, the rules of politeness allow for the consumption of stinky cheese. 

Although it may be acceptable to eat stinky cheese in certain circumstances, it is also important to note that cheese eating in general can lead to intestinal distress, making it a poor choice of food for many people who want to avoid copious amounts of gas.

For people who are lactose intolerant, the act of eating cheese or other dairy products can cause significant discomfort. The Mayo Clinic describes how people who are lactose intolerant “have diarrhea, gas and bloating after eating or drinking dairy products” (“Lactose Intolerance”). This is a common experience—lactose intolerance is quite common around the globe. The prevalence of this condition makes it extremely likely that many people are experiencing this gastrointestinal distress without even realizing its cause; abstaining from dairy products such as cheese would likely lead to these gastric effects being reduced or even eliminated. Granted, there are products which can also reduce the effects of dairy consumption for lactose-intolerant people, but many people do not know that they are lactose intolerant, and thus cannot benefit from these products. For this reason, many people who are concerned about gastrointestinal issues may consider avoiding dairy entirely.

While cheese is smelly and can cause gastric distress, it must be acknowledged that there are some cases where one either can or must consume cheese. First is when there is no other alternative. In my personal experience, I have sometimes gone to dinners where cheese is an unavoidable part of the menu. For instance, on a school camping trip, the only food one night was mac ’n’ cheese. That night, I ate the mac ’n’ cheese, even though I strongly dislike cheese, because it was the only option available to me. In another example, I have been served salads with cheese incorporated in. It would have been impolite to pick out the cheese particles from the salad, so I ate the salad without adjustment or complaint. In both cases, I did not make any complaints or try to change the situation, as there was no alternative or way to eliminate the cheese from the food being served, so complaining would have had no positive impact on anyone. 

These personal experiences can be extrapolated into general rules. If one goes to a dinner party or other event in which the host is serving a meal which includes cheese as part of it, and there is no way to avoid the cheese, then it is acceptable to eat some of the cheese. To refuse would be both impolite and impractical—not only is it rude to turn down food, but refusing to eat food with cheese could mean that one eats nothing at all. In these situations, people should eat their food without complaint or apparent discomfort, as any expression of discomfort will have no positive impact and only serve to make both the guests and host uncomfortable. This would not help anyone. The second case in which it is acceptable to eat cheese is in the context of foods in which the cheese’s odor and texture completely is transformed by whatever food it had become part of, to the point that it can scarcely be called “cheese” anymore. Pizza serves as the typical example in my case. One of the most popular foods in America, pizza is delicious and almost universally appreciated, despite its prominent usage of cheese. Most pizzas start off with mozzarella, a milder and generally less offensive cheese. The cheese’s potentially unpleasant texture and flavor are moderated further—even transformed—by the incorporation of pizza sauce and high heat into the process of making a pizza. With these elements, the cheese on a good pizza is almost unrecognizable. This process makes the cheese on pizza palatable for me, and I believe that this same thought process can be used in the context of other foods which use mild cheeses whose original flavors are overpowered by the rest of the dish—lasagna comes to mind. In these contexts, cheese can be an acceptable part of a meal, if it is not consumed in excess and that the (previously discussed) downsides of eating cheese are known to the consumer. With these foods, the intestinal challenges that can come with cheese may be ignored to fully enjoy the depth of flavor of the dish itself.

At this point, my argument ends. As I described at the beginning of my essay, I do not like cheese, and I have developed an intellectual framework around this disliking. Through this

work, I hope that I have persuaded you, both cheese-lovers and cheese-haters, that people should avoid the consumption of smelly cheeses in public settings because of the unpleasant odor. To the people who are unsure on cheese, I hope that I have pushed you a little further towards avoiding cheese with my description of the prevalence of lactose intolerance, and my explanation of how its effects can be decreased by reducing consumption of dairy products. Finally, to my fellow cheese-haters, I hope that I have given you some food for thought on exceptions to our avoidance of cheese. If I have made you think on any of these topics, I consider this essay a success.

Works Cited

Jagatia, Anand. “What’s in a Smell?” BBC Science Focus Magazine, BBC, 12 July 2023,

www.sciencefocus.com/the-human-body/whats-in-a-smell.

“Lactose Intolerance.” Mayo Clinic, Mayo Foundation for Medical Education and Research,

www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/lactose-intolerance/symptoms-causes/syc-20374232. Accessed 27 June 2025.

Lang, Ariane. “Parmesan Cheese: Nutrition, Benefits, and Uses.” Healthline, Healthline Media, 1

May 2023, www.healthline.com/nutrition/parmesan-cheese-nutrition-benefits-uses.

Richmond, Steve. “Office ‘etiquette’ Guide Advises against Eating Smelly Foods in

Workspaces.” The Independent, 26 Sept. 2023, www.theindependent.com/life-style/food-office-advice-eggs-fish-b2418070.html.

Royet, Jean-Pierre, et al. “The neural bases of disgust for cheese: An fmri study.” Frontiers in

Human Neuroscience, vol. 10, 17 Oct. 2016, https://doi.org/10.3389/fnhum.2016.0051

You should donate to the SERV Auction RIGHT NOW!

Whether big or small, please take 3 minutes to donate an item (or five). Your donations will support the Palestine Red Crescent Society deliver critical humanitarian aid. The auction is also a great way to meet new people, showcase your skills, and come together as a community.

For inspiration, here are a few awesome items that have been donated in the past:

  • Bake you cookies
  • Wooden bowl 
  • Help designing your portfolio
  • Free coffee at Caffe Nero
  • Pickup from a Green Line or Commuter Rail stop
  • Custom art piece
  • Free haircut 
  • Video call with farm animals
  • Small plant
  • Take you hiking
  • Nail painting session
  • Skating lesson
  • Polar plunge, 1 second for every dollar

Please Please Please Donate!!!

I am hoping to close the donations at the end of the day Wednesday (3/4) so get your donations in now! The auction will run for one week from Thursday 3/5 until Wednesday night 3/11.

Are Oliners Okay? 

Trigger warning: suicidal ideation  

When I came to Olin, I found a community that supported me in ways I had never been able to find before. For the first time, I felt that most of my peers, faculty, and staff saw me as a whole person and genuinely cared about my wellbeing. However, it has become clear to me that here, unlike at other schools I’ve attended, everyone is sick. Many students I’ve talked to have struggled with their mental health and school related issues like I have. Olin’s productivity and overachievement culture often means we often feel pressured to sacrifice healthy priorities and lifestyle, which makes it harder for us to make healthy choices as individuals. 

I felt the pressure to succeed since before I can remember. I’ve continuously been fed the idea that self-worth and quality of future are measured by academic achievement, fancy jobs, and sheer productivity. I wasn’t allowed to relax or have fun until I finished all of my homework. I felt guilty for enjoying myself when there was work I could be doing. 

I found writing particularly difficult, but no one believed me. No matter how much I cried and said I couldn’t do it, I was told that if I didn’t do all of my homework perfectly and on time, then I would never get good grades, would never get into a good college, would never get a good job, and would forever be broke and miserable.  

Because of the grueling writing assignments, the lack of support, and loneliness, I hated school. Since school was my whole life, I hated being alive. I didn’t understand that it wasn’t normal to want to die every day. I thought everyone did, that’s what it sounded like from others.   

I didn’t think I should be struggling or need help. I had a nice family, a nice house, a nice school; nothing “bad” had really happened to me. It didn’t seem like I had any valid reasons to be depressed.

Things continued to get worse throughout middle and high school, compounding with struggles I was navigating in other parts of my life. I contemplated every day if I could keep living. I wanted that happy life with a dream job, but it felt impossible for me to get there. Life was too painful and I couldn’t stand it anymore. I didn’t know if I would be strong enough to keep going. I felt like I could break at any moment and I would be gone. I questioned if it was even worth it to keep chasing my dreams. 

It was always frustrating to hear “it gets better” when I never had any proof. It wasn’t getting better. There wasn’t a clear way for it to get better. I’d never seen anyone else get better. I didn’t believe I would ever get better. 

No matter how miserable I was, maintaining good grades was still my top priority. I put everything I had into schoolwork, making myself more exhausted and depressed every day. I kept pushing to finish my homework, even though it was killing me. I knew I wasn’t ok, but I didn’t know how I could change. I was told I would get even more depressed and anxious if I got behind. There was never a good time for me to take time for myself. It got to the point where I was so depleted that I couldn’t process basic math. My future as an engineer felt completely hopeless. I finally realized that if I didn’t step back and take care of myself, then I couldn’t get good grades, get into my dream college, or do whatever comes after. That wonderful life I was working towards would never exist if I were dead.  

I left school and admitted myself to partial hospitalization. The program was a dumpster fire, but I eventually got what I needed to get better. Fast-forward a few years and I’m now going to my top choice college, on track to achieve those dreams I had always been chasing. I remember the first time I went a whole day without thinking I wanted to die. It was incredible. I enjoy my life now and genuinely like being alive. I didn’t know that was even possible. I am proud of how much I have overcome and am stronger than I ever thought I could be. I have so much to live for. Every day I am reminded how grateful I am to still be here. 

I don’t know just how many people here are hurting like I was, but I believe it’s a lot. I see parts of my old self in everyone around me. 

I’m concerned about how normal it is to be miserable here. I’m disappointed by how often I hear people talk about depression or wanting to kill themselves like it doesn’t mean anything. I hear it at dinner, office hours, or just walking through the halls. This environment makes it feel like severe mental illness and suicidal ideation is not the serious problem that it is. It sends the message that it doesn’t matter if someone is really struggling. It makes it hard to tell when people are in immediate danger when suicidal comments are so common.  

It hurts me when people say they want to kill themselves, even as a “joke”. I have flashbacks to the pain I was in during the darkest period of my life. It makes me feel alone here, or like people wouldn’t care if I hadn’t made it here. The words and questions swirl around in my head, and I get scared of going back to that dark place. It certainly does not create a space where I can learn and grow, which is what I hoped for at Olin. 

I’ve tried bringing up this pattern of students saying they want to kill themselves to StAR, but have not gotten much of a response. Many of the staff seemed more concerned about the comments being inappropriate than about student wellbeing. Some suggested I should call people out directly, which I think misses the point entirely. An unhealthy culture around mental health and suicide can’t be changed by simply avoiding certain kinds of jokes.

I wish I had specific mental health resources I would recommend at Olin, but they are really lacking currently. I’ve had a difficult time getting connected to adequate care, despite reaching out to multiple people. In my experience, most of these resources have been superficial or just crisis response with little in-between. I’ve heard promises of improvement but haven’t seen much yet. I’m hopeful new staff will build these programs effectively. 

I want to send the message that everyone here matters. You are an important, unique person that deserves care, support, and to live a full, happy, healthy life. Your wellbeing is more important than any schoolwork; it’s more important than homework assignments, deadlines, grades, credit hours, project teams, or internship applications. Take the time to enjoy yourself. No matter how big or small (or compared to what others are facing), what you’re struggling with is enough to get support. If you need help, you need it. You are enough. Life is worth living. As long as you’re alive, it can get better.  

So please, 

Admin, provide better resources.  

Students, get the support you need—you do need it.  

Everyone, let’s be better as a community. 

Love, 

Concerned Student 

If you or someone you know is struggling or in crisis, the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline provides 24/7, connection to free, confidential support to people anywhere in the US. 

Call or text 988 

Or chat at 988lifeline.org 

R2s are available for additional support.